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Purpose
I gaze into the mirror at myself
And I must ask
Who am I?
What is my purpose on this Earth?
Am I to make a difference
In one life or many?
Am I to wander alone
Forever as I have been?
Day by day
I try to understand
I try to find my soul
Yet come up empty-handed
What am I waiting for?
Piano
The keys beneath my fingers
Feel so cold
So unloving
So indifferent towards me
The white ivory glares at me
With a coldness that cuts deep inside
The black invades
Slicing down any chance at simplicity
The melodies pouring out
So intricate
Yet so delicate and so simple
A song without words
So plain
Yet so effective
White and black
Harmonious in melody
Beauty in music
Tell Him
These feelings
I cannot hide
These feelings
Swirl within my soul
I made myself a promise
A promise I cannot keep
I’ve fallen again
For one so close to my heart
I thought the past was love
No, this time it feels new
This is love
And I cannot keep it inside
Let my courage build
And my confidence soar
Let me prepare to crumble
I can face this
Now a new promise
I must let my feelings flow
Look into his eyes
And tell him
My Song
Just say the word
You could be mine
Just take my hand
You could be mine
Breathe my air
Live my dreams
I’ll say yes
I’ll live yours too
Just hold me tight
I will be yours
Just whisper to me
I will be yours
Walk my path
Sing my song
I’ll say yes
I’ll sing yours too
Just say the word
Just hold me tight
Just take my hand
Just whisper to me
You could be mine
I will be yours
3 am
It’s 3 am
And a tiny bird is chirping
As if it were time
To awake the world
It’s 3 am
And I reflect upon my life
As if I were aged
Ready to bid goodbye
I realize I have been
The forgotten friend
They call me a friend
Yet I am invisible to them
They set their plans
Have a merry time
Forgot to tell me the time
Forgot to tell me the place
It’s 3 am
And it’s another lonely night
Alone to listen to the bird’s song
Alone to reflect upon my lonely life
You Try
You try to make the feelings go away
You try to divert your attention
You rarely see him
You rarely talk with him
Yet the feelings still endure
There’s something there
Even though he is not
The cruelties of love
The pain of being alone
The fear of never being desired
You try to let go
It is too hard to bear
You try to ignore it
The feelings persist
You try…
Invisible
He doesn’t see me
Unless I dance in front of him
He doesn’t hear me
Unless I speak first
He doesn’t think of me
Unless I put myself in his mind
He cares not
Unless I scream out for help
To him
I’m invisible
Someone
Someone’s kiss
Someone’s touch
Someone’s smile
Someone to laugh with
Someone to cry on
Someone to embrace tight
Someone’s charm
Someone’s beauty
Someone’s magic
Someone to be
Someone to be with
Live Again
My life is so empty
Yet so full
Each day filled to the brim
No room to stop
My world is so empty
Yet I’m surrounded
By those who love
Yet I cannot return it
I’ve not a shoulder to cry on
Only a worn pillow
Yet I’m sure they’re out there
I just can’t see
I can’t see past this maze
A maze that has swallowed my being
Blinded me from all else
Tying me down to a life I don’t want
I need that someone
Someone to pull me out
To guide me home
So I can live again
Comfort
That smile
That gaze
My mind races
Your presence
Your comfort
My weary soul rests
That laugh
That voice
My heart beats fast
Your charm
Your grace
My world is alright
Soul
Alone in my room at night
My world comes crumbling down
A painted smile
A recorded laugh
Gets me through each day
A life of perfection
A life so imperfect
An actress in daylight
A sad soul in the dark
A Path
Solitary
The moon looks on
As a tear streams down my pale cheek
My tasseled waves of hair
Become damp as the river grows
Regret fills my heart
Yet it had to be done
The stars dimly shine through
And remind me there is hope
Hope of a new path
Hope old paths may return
I now take one traveled too often
A path solitary
A path I must take alone
December
Guided by a shining star
My eyes gaze across the horizon
Its astronomical effects
Reach deep into my soul
And give me a sense of peace and of hope
It’s December now
The cold winter wind
Throws itself against my body
Yet I feel a sense of warmth
The bright moon
Holds me in her arms
And keeps me safe from
The wind’s icy prowess
A season so harsh
Yet I come out strong
I feel protected and loved
What is
Love?
What is love?
Have I ever felt it?
Have I even witnessed it?
Literature describes perfect love,
Yet do we know that it exists?
Film portrays such sweet love,
But is it true for real life?
Attraction, soul mates, true love,
A figment of our imagination?
Questions fill my every thought,
Questions that may forever go unanswered.
Does this
Love Exist?
I saw your face
As I closed my eyes tonight
Your warm and gentle smile
Brought peace to my mind
And awakened a dreamer
Dreaming of one day
Being held in your embrace
Believing that one day
Our lips will interlock
A sweet love so deep
Tell me you feel the same
Tell me I’m not being led blindly
By a love which never existed
He’s
There
I breathe in deeply
Gathering the scent of nature into my body
On my slow breath out
Thoughts of him swirl in my mind
Like the colored leaves of autumn
Wanting someone to hold me
Wanting someone so dear
Too afraid to take the chance
Too afraid to let you know
He’s right there
Within my reach
Yet I’m so scared
Timid and small
I’m a mouse amidst a large oak tree
Staring up at the top
Wanting so to be there
Too afraid to try
Autumn
Depression
A deep lull
Has saddened my face
Strewn my cheeks with tears
Moving in so swiftly
As does a summer storm
Yes, it is autumn
A time of cool, crisp, stable weather
Yet I crumble
No answers why
I break apart in my solitude
The leaves dry and fall
I fall too
Destiny
A rush of emotion
Has taken captive my body
And it dare not
Let me know the reasons why
Yet in unspoken words
It has told me my path
It has told me my truth
With no explanation I understand
But I cannot endure it quite yet
Tears fill my eyes
Tiny streams of beauty
I accept my journey
Strong, I will be
She Will
Do Great Things
Waterfall of dreams
River of hopes
Each day she reaches for the stars
She can feel their kind warmth
They are near and she knows
Keep achieving
One day she will find her place
One special place for her
The majestic sun beams will shine upon her
The moon will embrace her
She will rise and be loved
Much greatness will come from her warm grace
She will do great things for this Earth
Support her, encourage her
Raise her high, you will see
Sad Child
Eyes burning
The flaming gaze
Opens a doorway
Into her deepest thoughts
Much pain
Much fear
Someone hold her
She fades away
Someone take her hand
The darkness swallows her
She is a sad child
Help her
Take her in your arms
Show her there is light
Fall Thunderstorm
The night sky turned to day
For a brief moment in time
Shattered purple streaks
Majestically dance across the sky
Rain pounds the ground
With no mercy
Pavement shines like silver
Slick and unforgiving
Wind blowing with graceful power
Throwing leaves
Covering the path
Like a winter snowfall
Swirling, swirling
A world of turmoil
Yet a subtle peace
Comfort in its beauty
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